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A private subdivision which is in BF Parañaque and to be exact or for those who don’t know where it is, it is located in phase 4 near Moscow St. err… It’s already in Las Piñas ^_^;

Now, Mariposa was built in the early 80’s??? I’m not sure about the exact year but I think we moved there around 1984???…. Not sure about that too but we are some of the first family to be there… uhm… you might say we are some of the pioneer of that subdivision along with some of my old friends… There’s a bit of a problem when you are from that subdivision… like for example you get to meet some homeowner’s from the other sector of BF… The first thing they would say or ask when they find out your from mariposa is “hey, is that also a part of BF?, ‘cause you just said BF Mariposa?, I thought it ends in Moscow St.” ^_^; and I would usually reply with this “yup, err… I think ehehe” ^_^; tough!

Some of the times it kind of hurts that somebody would tell you that our subdivision was not part of BF at all, but who can blame them? Before, when we moved there… It was so very nice and peaceful for many years till I went to college… Even if you would to go home at 3am-4am walking the street alone to your house… You wouldn’t feel unsafe, even when you see some people drinking from the other street, ‘cause you know almost everyone or if not, they knows you and wouldn’t bother you… The only thing that would make you unsafe is the story of ghost and the one from your house :P nyahahaha!!!

Then comes the late 90’s, some newly built duplex houses from the other streets, there came a new neighbors to the subdivision… The first week of their stay was not really a good impression to our groups  ‘cause both new neighbors from that so called duplex house got into a fight with each others, ah’ such noises these new neighbors of ours makes… as if they already own the whole subdivision… looking tough and always getting into troubles… the duplex house kind of degraded the subdivision quality and these people that are living in that type of house are degrading it more… I don’t have anything against them… and some even became a part of our group one way or another at one time… Though drugs are sometimes the issue of why we stay away from them and couldn’t get along well with the others…

Present time… Some of our friends either moved to other places or others rarely stay at home due to work, other’s are already dead and are somewhere hehehe… I for one, was not staying at home for more than a year or years… I already forgotten how long I had been away from home… You could only see me there if there’s something I need to do like, if some friends would call me and wants me to be there when his birthday comes or my mom wants me home at weekends… something like that… besides that… I don’t bother to be home… there are times that even if there is an occasion or something that I wouldn’t bother to be there…

But whenever I can or doesn’t feel lazy to travel, I’ll be there if I’m really needed to be there… Now, whenever I would get to meet some male/female friends who doesn’t stay there like me… The first thing they would say is “There are so many new faces in this subdivision and it feels like that I’m not from here anymore… as if I’m the one who is new here and they would stare hard at me!”… Yes, that’s the typical words some of us who’s been away for quite sometime or are rarely seen going out of the house due to work. Others who’s been staying there are complaining that the subdivision are a total mess now ‘cause of these so called homeowners from the duplex houses or whatever… As if this guys always wanted trouble, not choosing who to trouble with… Some of my friends already got into trouble with them… One was when he was with his girlfriend and someone told something like “you should leave your boyfriend” something like that… Others would be stared at really hard or makes fun of whenever he/she would buy something from the corner store where one would usually see them hanging at nights…

What about this so called “security guards” from this subdivision? Ah’ you could see them at night riding in their bicycle from time to time… The problem with this security guard is that they don’t even know or cannot tell the difference from a homeowners to a  strangers… Me and my next-door childhood friend have been asked by these so-called guards where we live? Hmmm… The last time was just a couple of days ago… during weekends when my friend parked his car in the front of their house (which is next to our house) and we got out… He suddenly came and asked us questions… good thing I’m not that in a bad mood due to some idiot who wants to smash my face for reasons as to now I still have no idea or are still unclear… more on that later…But isn’t it obvious that we lived there?. Looking at just how  the way we parked the car and how we got out… How many times had this happened to us? But what really was annoying was that they couldn’t do this to some people… aha! Especially to those people who are hanging out in front of our house making noises and drinking at some late hours of the night… I was wondering as to where are these “SECURITY GUARDS” during that time…. Hmmm.. Let me guess, you are roaming in your sleep at some vacant house? Nope?… One more! One more! Please!…. hmmm… Ah’ you are having a shot of liquor down the subdivision street? Or somewhere… chatting privately at some house maid…^_^;

And now… let me tell you this story about someone wanting my face… remember the vacant house next to our house which is almost like it was demolished for rebuilding or something and the only thing remaining is it’s corner foundation and the rooftop, no walls, lights, waters etc… ah’ how many years had this been abandoned and left alone looking like that by its owner? Hmm… hope somebody can send me a picture of that house so, I could post it in here… Anyway… its not abandoned right now ^_^; and it still is as it is from my description… So, who would be living in this house at its current state? I have no idea… where did this habitant come from? I don’t even recognize or have a picture of the peoples face living in this house… Well, typical me… As I always do… “I mind my own business”…

Well, to make this story long I’ll just have to tell the story much longer hehehe… Last Saturday I went home ‘cause my mom told me to, for I was scheduled to have a check-up on something (weeehh… I won’t tell you what this check-up is all about! :P ) but my doctor is still in the state that day so I was re-scheduled on Wednesday… Anyway… I just do things I would or would normally do, all my friends knows this. Whenever I am home that I would sleep, watch TV, sleep, go to some friends house, sleep, watch TV, sleep, friends, sleep, TV… err… you get the idea… So, I end my Saturday doing that… uhm… tiresome isn’t it? ^_^; Anyway… same goes with my Sunday… except me, Igor and Buboy are to meet at around 8pm to go “Ruins” (located in phase 1) to buy some anime dvd and blank cd-r’s… I was watching this Pirates of the Caribbean-dead man’s chest movie at wowow, and I totally forgot the time until my mom came home from the church… so, I called Buboy’s up and told him to meet us in front of Igor’s house… Buboy is already in front of our house when I came out so, together we waited for Igor in front of our house for he is still dressing up or something… I think he just came out of the shower when I called him… Anyway, we waited outside and had a few conversation of something nonsense until Igor’s came out and we hopped into his car and went to Ruins… now, while we are walking around looking for something to buy, my cell suddenly ring… the number is not registered in my cell, but I still answered the call and it was the wife of Buboy… so I passed the cell to buboy and they talked but due to the noise around us he couldn’t understand a word she said and told her to just send a text message on what she was trying to say and so that’s what she did… And the text message was like this, that I should be careful when we go back to the subdivision  and that I should never walk the main gate ‘cause some group that are  “VERY DRUNK” and very much angry at me is waiting  and want to smash my face… and that they came to Buboy’s place looking for me or something like that… hmmm… Now, we kind of guessed at who was that person? And Igor just laughed and told us to “Ignore the message as it was just probably a joke!”, well, I didn’t ignore it and told buboy to text her wife and asked her who the person is… To my mind I think it was Ronald, who came to visit us and was at Buboy’s place, upon hearing that I was there,  He made a prank out of it ^_^; Well, that’s what I was thinking at first… But the following message change the way I think of the situation as it looks like very serious now… It tells that the group of drunks who are looking for me was my next door neighbor… Their reason why they wanted to smash my face was this “that almost every time  they would have a drinking session, that I would throw a firecrackers next to them and because of that… they got angry and want to get even with me… for a very long time they have a grudge against me”  and my reaction?, same with Igor’… It was  “HUH!!!??” We where totally surprised upon knowing that… Igor and I, we where both surprised…  First, I don’t like firecrackers, haven’t touched one since I was in high school… even on New Year’s Eve… If we had firecrackers in the house I would tell my mom to just give it to Igor ‘cause I won’t light them up… And I would just watch him as he finished lighting them all up. Even if I can light a firecracker, I still couldn’t do the things they said about my action, as I’m not staying at home for some years now… Besides, I don’t care what you fucking guys do as long as you are not bothering me personally… But since you are doing that now, I’m really irate… And I don’t even know you guys or have a picture of your shitty  faces… uhm… Are you guys on drugs or something? It’s nice to have a drink and get drunk but don’t put the liquors in your head. Good thing Paddy’s doesn’t live there anymore or he wouldn’t be quiet on this one… Don’t forget that we are a homeowners unlike you guys… I think you should show some respect for the people who are living in that subdivision… I should say… Show a bit more respect! As if you wanted us, the homeowners to be the one who would bow and  respect to you guys whenever we sees you. When you are just a visitor from that subdivision… Even the one you are visiting cannot be called a homeowners… I don’t like to say this… but… I think that you shouldn’t even be hanging out in there or living in that place in the first place, as it is a private subdivision. You guys aren’t a legitimate homeowners at all! All you do is make ruckus all the time whenever you guys gets drunk! The reasons you had against me is laughable! You guys wanted to awaken my sleeping dark side aren’t you?

Now, Whenever someone would mention BF Mariposa to his/her friends who is also from the other sector of BF… They would respond now like this “Ah’ BF Mariposa!, I know that place!” ^_^; hmmm… what could that mean??? Mariposa is getting a lot of recognition nowadays! But why is that we all wanted to leave that place and moved to somewhere else?

Oh’ before I end this… I like to know and ask this… Who are the President and the Security Committee of BF Mariposa now? And the other officials? Where are the BF Security Guards, the one who’s riding in their motorbikes at night? Haven’t seen them for quite sometime now… Anyway…  So, Are you from BF Mariposa? ^_^;

This is something some might call a random thought but I call this a one's man lazy thought...

zzzz..... uhm.... Anyway... Where was I?

Black is nothing more but a color to some and to others, it is something more... To some, it's their favorite color and to others.... err... They put some meaning into it... Though wearing black is not enough... Whatever it is that you are trying to accomplish.... So that you might be called this or that... Or be in the crowd or group of something... Most of the time.... You will just look really stupid in black... Or be out of the crowd. Ah' I'm not making sense here... Might I just fade into black? If you want to be scary... err... Why not try to be a clown instead? Clowns are really scary, even though they always wear a smile on their face with such a happy and bright colors all over them... I don't like clowns really... I'd rather paint them black ^_^;

Able to play the guitar would make you really cool? uhm... yeah most of the time... But memorizing the chords pattern and positioning of your hands or even imitating your guitar gods is not enough... There's a lot more to that... hmm... that's not the lead to that song? err... ever heard of improvisation? hey' his playing is somewhat not in tune err... You're really one annoying kid are you!? Ever heard of an offbeat? how about a 16 beat? 4/4? how about a rest? ^_^; I forgot to mention that your mama left you a note on the table... read it!, I think it's important. Well, as long as you could play a power chords... oh' a power chords? hmm... Is that when you used the distortion and max out the volume on my amp? Well, I think that would be all right... Why don't you just jump off the cliff err.. I mean riff and I should just mute with my palm err... I mean...  mute my mouth with my palm on this one as it is getting noisy... :P

What type of music do you like to listen to? uhm... let me see... I'm into jpop and eurobeat nowadays... or should I just say growing up ^_^; Ah' you fucking lame!!! I'm into this and that... and a lot more... see my grocery list. You're a one lame lost soul...

Ah' damnit ok ok... here's a random list from my decked! It's not in order and I'm looking and writing this one at the same time randomly...

Tiamat: Clouds
Slayer: Reign In Blood
Morbid Angel: Blessed Are The Sick
Cro-Mags: Alpha Omega
Benediction: Grand Leveller
Rostok Vampires: Torment of Transformation
Sarcofago: The Laws of Scourge
Chicago: Greatest Hits 1982-1989 *oopps....I overlooked, but as I've said this is random hehehe...
The Best of Beethoven
Dead Can Dance: Into The Labyrinth *hmmm...
Celine Dion: Falling Into You *fucked it! someone is messing with my collection again! Where's my Thalia's!!!?

Uhmm... I think I should just stop on this one... Or I'll be tempted to dust off  my old collections and someone's ass again... ^_^;

What is a ps/2? Uhm... It's a playstation 2! nope, It's a mouse!... a mouse? err... ok, let me just put it this way... If you are a afraid of a mouse then just play with your playstation and don't bother with the mouse running around  ^_^; end.

Is Lelio a vampire?... err.. nope, I think Lestat is the vampire. Who's Magnus then? err... Who's that? I know Marius but not Magnus ^_^; Well... What about Bela Lugosi? Ah' He's an actor from the past, much like Christopher Lee. The only difference is that Bela is already dead and Alucard is a walking dead... ^_^;

Someone looks so stupid to others... But to that stupid others eye... You are just an idiot!

I don't like him/her... he/she looks so uncool... err.. I think he/she doesn't like you either (double time) as you seems to have no brain ^_^;

Indeed! that is a one great word.... hmm... That has piqued my interest one way or the other... Let me look up at some other great words to use in the dictionary... Baka desu yo! I only have my Japanese - English dictionary with me!... oh' well... :P

I've heard she/he is rich! err... from what I've heard, His/Her parents is the one who is rich...  uhm... Reminds me of something... I've got this friend of mine, He' always err.. kinda been a bit in a habit to throw a 1,000 or 500 peso bill from his pocket, 'cause he thinks it's just a piece of paper. And sometimes, He would leave his car at the company where he is working with 'cause he forgot he had a car, and he's even excited 'cause he gets to have a free ride in his officemate car  ^_^; Yah! it's true! But I won't mention his name here. One more, he even thought that his "other" computer is a 286! baka! I'm much more familiar with your computers... I shouldn't have argue with you about your computer specs... or you would have given that other pc if I asked it for hehehe... I'll have to remember that next time...  :P

A future destination is what she's really interested in, and you are her ticket to that destination she is dreaming of... She's already set her mind to it  err... are you? err... hello? man, you're floating on air... oh' well, with all this talking, and you are not even listening to a single word I say... ^_^;

woah! I'm beginning to think now... So, I had to end this for now... Or it won't be random anymore... :P

Some added thoughts:

Some so-called relative of mine sent me a text message in my cell phone the other night and here’s that message: “What you don’t KNOW will not hurt you, it’s what you SUSPECT that FUCKS everything up.. JS A THOUGHT..GUD NYT…” And so, this is what my thought regarding the message… Are you not already hurt just knowing one side of the story, and that story might not even be the whole truth? It’s what you easily believed from others that fuck your way of thinking ‘cause you don’t bother to know everything. Crocodile’s tears can be very deceiving you know… Be careful when you see one… hmmm… well, I think this is just a thought too. T_T

I’m seeing such a wasted talent almost everyday of my life… too bad…^_^; that nobody from my err… relatives and family enters into the world of show business… I think almost everyone can be a very good actor or actress or even a scriptwriter… Some might even win an award in the “best dramatic actor/actress category”. I think you guys are watching way too much drama series… ^_^; err… me too! Or else… how can I criticize you with all your acting if I don’t watch all these good drama’s ^_^;

It's only past 10 in the evening, ahhh' nothing to do and I feel so tired. Just got home from school and still finding my bed blanket turned over up to the top where my pillows are... this is for the third night in a row now, maybe i should ask the maid why they had to do this, and i went to the kitchen where my mom and the maid are having some chat.And neither of them had any idea why my bed is like that and they even thought I'm the one who's doing that and even told me that if its not me then maybe it's Christopher Idea of getting even with me... hmm... well, Christopher is one of our persian cat, he' couldn't have done that as it was turned really neat and its more of a human than a cat that would do that... well, better get to bed now as my eyes are getting heavier by the minute.

Lying now on my bed and it's been an hour or so, I think... but i'm having an uneasy feeling and i'm somewhat between sleep and awake state, and still quite aware of what's going on around me. That my mom is in her room now next to mine as I could hear her television set to a bit much higher volume than mine and still watching the same show she would watch everynight before going to sleep... ahh' too tired to open my eyes and tried hard to have a deep sleep but there's also something catching my attention... it's our dog barking at something and running back and forth around the house for quite sometime now,and I'm really way to tired to even open my eyes or to shout at the dog to stop barking...so,I kinda leave him be but there's also something else... while in this state... there seems to be people having a quarrel at this time of night... maybe from the next house after ours but it couldn't have been from there as the house next to my bedroom windows had been abandoned for some years now, But I could hear this man's voice arguing over something with this other person but I couldn't quite understand what his words yet it was very clear... but I'm beginning to fall into a deep sleep now...

It was really late but I've been awaken by this calling of my name by this person whom I think is in front of our gate 'cause his voice seems to be coming from there... "Ah' keep your voice down or you'll wake everyone in this house and not just me" I said to myself, as I thought he's one of my crazy friends, yes maybe he is as i've met some of them earlier this afternoon on my way to school and even invited me for some drinking session later in the evening as we usually does almost all the time... I've somehow forgotten about that or else I wouldn't be home that early... well, he's still calling my name, what time is it? so I looked at my TV which I always leave turned on whenever I'm in my room or even when I go to sleep and is some distance away from my bed, I think it's 2am now 'cause now MTV is showing Daria or something this animated show is called... its been that long for me to remember, and it just started and always shown at 2am. Now back my attention to this friend of mine who's calling me at this late hour, but the voice?... He couldn't have been one of my friends 'cause his voice is not familiar with me... then something of a shocked came to me, He' entered the gate and into this second gate of our porched and I'm like "You asshole, You'll wake my mom up if you call me by my window", my friends usually does this almost all the time whenever I wouldn't come out but not like this time of night and not when my mom's at home. But a more shocked came to me when i've felt his presence stopped at the main front door of the house, and he somewhat had entered and it seems he just went through the door without opening it and now moving fast and inside the house went straight to where I am, into my room...

There he is, the man who's been calling me. He's standing now near the foot of my bed, blocking the light from my TV set which is behind him now. I'm still shocked that he entered the house, then suddenly he spoked to me at the same time pointing his finger at me and he said "See, you're still awake... why hadn't you answered my call?", and I'm like dumbed, and answered "HUH?", then he continued to speak saying "I only had something to tell you..." and he moved closer to me... now, I'm still a bit shocked at this person... as he moved closer to me, I tried to look at his face but it seems just a blank space, or should i say just darkness. This face of this person even if i tried hard i couldn't see his face... I wasnt' scared a bit that time even if I couldn't see his face, but shocked... I'm shocked at his boldness to enter the house... and even passing through at the gates and the doors without even opening them... but what really scared me and realized that he's not a person or a human at all had let my hair stand on the back and only noticing the first time as he was walking nearer... besides that I couldn't see his face and his appearance are somewhat of just a silhouette, somehow I manage to look down and take notice of his feet... and what I saw really scared the shit out of me... He's feet... He's not walking on ground but floating... Oh' man, what to do? what to do!? and he's coming nearer and nearer at me... and his face... I couldn't still see his face...ah' he's not a person at all... now he's beside my bed looking down at me and my heartbeat going faster and faster... as he slowly bent over so he's face would be close to mine... He's face stil blank even by that near distance... I am now gasping for air, and I couldn't move a bit now but trembling and my body tremble with fear from the sight I am seeing now and all I could do was shut my eyes real tight... I could feel his face now, so close to mine and he move so that he could whisper into my right ear... he said something that was so clear in words but I could not understand it, like a million voice had been whispering at the same time at a clear rate but not... as if you are at some public market where everyone shout so clear but they kinda shout at the same time and so it's somewhat been unclear to my ears... and as he was whispering something, my whole sorrounding was engulfed from this wind like it's a storm of something, then it all suddenly came to a halt... the quietness of the night sorround me once again... this thing, he seemed to be gone now and... and now, I'm still trembling with fear and sweating a lot... And I could see and hear the low volume of my TV set once again... now the animated show on MTV had just ended, I know this as I am looking at these names scrolling from the tv screen and I still find myself unable to move... 30mins had past since the start of that experience... all is quiet but I didn't go to sleep for another 2 hours or so, until I heard our maid woke up and do her regular duty every morning...

Even though it all had happened some years back from now, As I'm writing this section... the hair on my back would still stand as I recollect my experienced from that... His silhouette features still somewhat been fresh from within the back of my memory after all this years ... As if I could still see it very clearly if I think about it... well, just one of the few exciting experience in life. But I don't like to remember them all at the same time nyahaha... maybe next time...^_^;

waaahhh... wala kwenta! may sakit lang kami ni Pat, Injured lang si Mr. Panlaqui, si Mr. Nepo hindi nag laro kasi inaway ng blue team, uu tutuu un! ^_^; tapos ini-inis si Bubsy ng mga oldies sa bench at sa inis ni Bubsy, sabi nya "Next Time, ayaw kona ng meron mas matanda pa kay Rhenz sa team" uy! mas bata ako kay Rhenz!!! wooohooo, pasok pa aku! ^_^; kaya hindi na nag coach at nag parang buddha nalang si Bubsy nun last quarter nun game? Tapos nag pormang player na nga lang ^_^; sabi ni Rhenz un ha! hehehe...

Un mga guard namin, Si Raul, na sobrahan lang sa pag jogging ng 3pm kaya medyo naubusan ng lakas, tapos si Jello... uhm... may stiff neck lang, kaya lagi sa sahig naka tigin pag nag dri-dribble habang nilulusutan ang 5 player ng blue team(kaya nyo un? terible 'tong batang toh! pinagalitan pa aku kasi si Lino nasa ilalim instead na aku), pero alam na alam nya kung nasan ang ring kaya ok lang ehehehe... ^_^; tapos si Em's, tsa' team mates pala tayo! Natuwa ako nun nakita kita! ^_^; baket nun ka lang naglaro! ok pala un gf u ha! este... ok sana pala un team kung lagi ka andun, kasi mas malakas tau! ^_^; ipapasok na nga sana agad kita nun pagkakita ko palang sa'yo kaso baka daganan aku ni BUBSY! ^_^; tapos si Furances!!! huy! nag ch-cheer ka ba samen? iba un pinapanood mu nun game, uhm... pakiramdam ku lang un best buddy! eheheh... ^_^; hindi ka na umalis nun last game ha... baket kaya? ^_^; Si Mr. Arbolado... sayang kung nag papasok lahat nun tira nun... bilib din aku dun sa tatay ni ke-lloyds eh... madalas ku nakikita libre un eh... di ku lang mapasan ^_^; ayaw gumalaw nun kamay ku, na sho-shocked kasi aku, expected ku si Pat or Rhenz na un ehehehe... ^_^; ano kaya sekreto nun at laging na lilibre sa court? kelangan matanung ku minsan, kung paanu nya nalulusutan buong team ng blue... o' sha' nawawala na ulit un bisa nun gamut ku sa lagnat, bwisit... 1 week na toh ah... uhm... Ano ba un tinuturuk kay BJ pag game? gumana din kaya sa trangkaso un?

Anyway... GUD MURNENG!!! la...la... la... la... pero maganda din un may trangkaso, parang may lumulutang na mga chicks sa kwarto ku... hanap nga si Furances nun isa eh... pangalan nya Emily Rose! kaya lang parang iba un boses! ^_^; Furances! dalawin ka daw nya mamya 3am hehehe.... :P Hi Rhenz! wala ako masabi sa'yo, ganda nun laro mu! Kasing ganda nun nakikita ku sa court!!! ^_^; wala na ba liga? Lapit na aku makundisyon ng 100%! ^_^; nga pala... tugtog kami Igor sa Sunday ng acoustic ^_^; maki sing along kau ha! ^_^;

Your body is a wonderland.... ^_^;

ampf.... pang third na ulit ku na toh ah... ang kulit kasi Igor... sa SATURDAY PALA KAMI TUGTOG... kasama namin un guitar namen hehehe... tugtog kami ng "Boso Nova", un fave na music ni Furances tsaka TORO!!! :P

Sa kayabangan nyo ay muntik na kayong maakyatan at manakawan! Mga tinamaan kayo ng %$)%$^#, mga walang pakialam kundi ang sarili nyo! Mga $)%(*#$ kayo! Wala na kayo inisip kundi kung paano kayo makakagulang! At manira ng kapwa nyo dahil mga chimis na walang ka kwenta kwenta! Dyan kayo magaling! Ang Manira ng katauhan ng tao! Parang tao na nga kayo! Masyado kayo nakaka irita! Sa kayabangan nyo! Ang hilig nyo magpa punta ng kung sino sino sa bahay! HOY! May Iba pang nakatira dito at HINDI lang kayo! Mayaman ba kayo? At dahil dyan pati MGA MAGNANAKAW AT MANYAKIS dito sa lugar eh, gusto na ngayon pumunta sa bahay! Mga hudas kayo! Walang magawa sa buhay! MAGPA KAMATAY NALANG KAYO! Wala kayo makukuha dito sa bahay, mayaman lang ang tao dito sa kayabangan!!! PALAMUNIN LANG DIN ANG MGA TAO DITO!!!

Nasaan ang mga kapatid nyo mayayabang lang magsalita? Tinutulungan ba kayo? Puro hangin lang naman, bakit ko sila ire-respeto? GAGO! Wala naman kayo natulong sa akin! Isang tao lang ni-rerespeto ko! Dahil yun ang nagpaka hirap palakihin ako! At bakit lagi kayo a-asa sa tatay ko? Mayaman ba yan? MAYABANG LANG YAN! Kung umasta kala mo ang dami pera! Lahat ng pangako nyan hangan dun lang… IPAKO NYO NALANG SA KRUS! Tutal ang hilig nyo magsimba! Ano ba ginagawa nyo dun? Makipag date? Makipag tsismisan? Bakit hindi kayo makipag usap sa DIYOS nyo? DIYOS BA TALAGA ANG KAUSAP NYO!? Ipagdasal nyo na MAMATAY NALANG AKO! At baka makinig pa kayo! At ng magka silbi yan pag punta punta nyo sa simbahan! Mga bwisit kayo!!!

At bakit nyo lagi sasabihin mayaman ang kapatid nyo? Sigurado ba kayo? May pera lang yan dahil nagtratrabaho yan! Mahilig lang yan umako ng problema nyo kahit alam nyang hindi nya naman kaya! Wag nyo pakialaman ang problema ng mga kamag anak nyo! Wala din naman kayong mga pera!, At pinapasa nyo din sa kapatid nyo! Mga tinamaan kayo ng lintik! Ano ba pinangako ng mga yan sa inyo ha? Husto lang din sa yabang! Dahil kayo nga hindi nyo na kaya eh… Tinutulungan din ba kayo ng mga yan? HA? Mga sira talaga kayo!!! Yun sarili nyo ngang pamilya hirap na hirap na kayo! Isasama nyo pa yan sa iba?

Kala mo nga mayaman ang tatay ko ano? Ang YABANG mo…. WAG KA NGA MAGBIBITIW ng salita sa akin kung di mo din matutupad!!! Naiirita lang ako sa’yo! Wag mo ako itulad dyan sa mga kapatid mo! Dahil tinuruan ako ng mommy, hindi katulad dyan sa bahay! Paaano nyo ba pinalaki yan AMPON NYO! HA? Parang sila lang mag-ina ang nakatira sa bahay ah! Parehong nag gagaguhan! Kung sa bagay! Wala din naman modo ang nanay! Ang mga magulang! Hindi marunong magpalaki ng mga anak! Kukuha kuha ka ng anak, wala ka naman pala papalamun dyan! HOY! HINDI KAYO MAYAMAN!!! Talo nyo pa ang mga tunay na anak ah! Mga bastos! HALIMAW!!! MGA SINUNGALING!!!

Uhm…. Ooppss… sorry If kinda wrote this one in my own native tongue! Hehehe… and to continue…

BWISIT TALAGA!!! BAKIT HINDI NALANG AKO MAMATAY!!! Ah’ matutulog nalang ako… *yawn*

From Lilith to Vlad Tepes and even Judas Iscariot from the 12 Apostles to Jack the Ripper… We search for something that is so called a vampire, we wanted to find out whether they really do exist or not, and I say… Vampires do exist… Just look in the mirror, can you really see yourself in there?

We are the vampires; every one of us is… since the very beginning… We feed on each other, we haunted each other down, stalking and killing each other… Letting no one knows of what we do as possibly as we can for others might hunt us down first before we can get to them. It’s in the human nature to get even really… ^_^;

Living in a perfect harmony with destructive mind among ourselves… And from time… We learned to create our own monster with ease but eventually… You would usually just like to laugh, insult and look down on your creation, carelessly and without affection you had led that monster to destroy itself for the meaning of existence is nonsense… And if you’re lucky enough not to be destroyed by your creation… Well, you can just create another monster, right? Hmm… let’s see… that one… looks really kind of stupid… we can make a new monster out of that one… call on the others to make witness to this new creation…

Looking distortedly at history to hide what we truly are or even hiding what our true history really is… and what we are back then… and what we humans are now… Are really all the same… Then and now… nothings changing really… except the scenery of course…and maybe the law… if there is really one…

We like to feed ourselves from others… Not with blood but with money… Even exchanging our freedom and abandoning or going against everything that are precious to us like family, friends etc… sometimes we even forget what true emotions are… What you have now is nothing but a mask and underneath that is nothing more but a decaying corpse… You, yourself are already dead amongst the living, yes… Breathing but are you really sure you are still alive? Do you still feel anything? Do you still remember us after accomplish the things you dream of? It only seems to be that you remember all of us but it is not… You are not that same person anymore but something else though you try to hide it from everyone else… Looking in your eyes, I see nothing but a clouded image… It seems that you try to control this new found strength you got right now from drinking into others and lingering in their company but as each passing days, you are growing weaker, in mind and everything else, including your reasoning… And you only think you are gaining something but in reality… You are loosing everything… You are nothing but a puppet of your own dream after you made it come to reality… You can’t even control your new found strength and are blinded by your new found light… Though you always see a light in your eyes, it is not the light of the sun that is shining but something else… Feeding yourself too much is not good for your health ^_^;

We also like to feed ourselves from the emotions of others… We don’t like to be alone in our misery… As that would be very lonely… So, instead… We feed on others emotions as well… We like others to be in the same state as ours… To be weak and miserable also… Why should you be happy when you can be miserable like everyone else… That would be so unfair, don’t you think? So, we drag everyone else down … We give and take… We share… Now, aren’t we becoming a real human because of this? But I think you’re a usurper… ^_^;

Well, what about a coffin? Hmm… I think this closet will do… Oopss… Wrong closet… as there’s someone skeleton here… Hey! Is this your skeleton? :P

Lots more but I’m beginning to be lazy once again, I might still edit this… *yawn*

As I lay under this big shaded tree near the road leading to darkness I fell asleep and dream…

In my dream there are these mischievous souls of two old sisters, small they may seems to be but their powers are beyond any human being could endure… One of them could speak with lightning bolt coming out of her mouth … that, if you are not aware of… well, could hurt you really bad if you don't know how to dodge it. And her eyes… the most grotesque you could see, she likes to look at everyone behind their back and her eyes would almost come out of their sockets, then it would return to normal in time when someone looks behind their back… one the scariest moment of my dream is to witness her doing that to some human…She also had a young host, yes… it's a small young host that she commanded to poke her nose at everyone's mind and tell her what she finds out about. This host are a bit stupid at times and could easily be tricked… And she could also trick her master so easily; I don't know which one of the other had a better brain… I find them both stupid and annoying!

So, I turn my attention to this other sister… ah' a very prayful soul, always praying when she had nothing to do and all alone… but beware this one had master the arts of deceiving… yes, she could deceive almost anyone… she loves telling stories that are so tall that every time she speak you'd either submit yourself or kill yourself… well that is if you already know the stories but if you haven't… oh' well… to bad for you then, 'cause you'll be deceived so easily… and she can take advantage of that to corrupt your mind… and use you to kill someone from your mind…

These two sisters also had the power to speak among themselves without anybody near them to hear what they are talking about but they are kind of both really stupid most of the time, that some of the people could hear them really well… and when they noticed that they've been heard, they would suddenly speak in normal, dance, do cartwheel or immediately do something else like they are not talking to each other… something like that…
 
These two sisters could turn from a total mischievous soul to a totally stupid looking tame cat in an instant once they see their brother who, once in a while would visit them to where they dwell… their looks seems that they could not break a single thing or harm a human being and are really, really quiet and friendly, like they are really that close to each other and likes human being so very much… ooohhh! And their smiles… their smiles reached both ears that it seems like their mouth could have a tear any moment…  maybe because they get their rewards and all the things they needed from that big brother of them…

As I try to observed them more… A sudden flash of lights attracted my attention and tries to find where it's coming from… and as I saw the light…  I'm back to reality and under this nice big tree… Oh' well… better start walking again… ^_^;

I would love to grab you by your neck and choke you to death
Your tongue is sharp like a newly crafted knife
Yet your mind is dull as a stoned used for a knife by the cave man
in the past…That can ripped out flesh, even the thickest of them all…

It is clear, as daylight can be and I can't see any fog around…
Yet your vision seems to be clouded…

Yet, you amused me though…
As if you had a clear picture of everything…
Yet you stumbled when you walk…

So leave me be to my own little dark world…
Darkness it is but much clearer than your world is now…

No wearing of a beautiful mask like in your world is…
Everything is real unlike your beautiful world is…

You're beautiful, like a perfect apple…
With a worm on the inside…
I don't want an apple with a worm
And so I'll just throw it away

To the river you would flow
To where it may lead you, I don't really care…
I just like to watch an apple as it floats away…
And so I say goodbye to you …

I've met this Lady and she… well, let's just say that she had given me quite an inspiration to write this one though we just had a few conversation …

She's not that bad, I think… she's so cold err… I mean cool but a bit sharp at times though she does not have any fangs ^_^; (I think she's annoyed LOL) but who am I to judge? I'm no GOD and don't intend to be one… I'll be much more bored and much more lazy than what I am now if I am to be a GOD now ^_^; anyway, this is nothing more but an idea and bit of what I've felt but nothing against her as I've said, this is just an inspiration from her and I had to thank her though but I'm scared of her now LOL ^_^;… I need to edit this more but I'll leave it for now… and who would be reading this anyway? Boring people like me? ^_^;

Sometimes my mind is much in a weaker state that I'm about ready to give out my life and rather leave this miserable life I am living in right now…how could they understand me when they don't really know me even if we are related in blood, all they could think of is themselves, truly selfish… all of them! Why waste my breath and strength on people who are deaf and blind except to things they wanted for their own… I'm losing blood in silence each passing day that I feel so tired and weak that I am unable to eat normally… making me dizzy and vulnerable to sickness as my immune to these disease are weakening, I demand to be rid of this shell that I am in right now so as to be at somewhere else if there is one…

This place or this world should I say, is a one big masquerade party where everyone is wearing a mask, hiding their true faces from everyone else. Only a few really shows their true face and most who doesn't enjoy this party at all, but the rest are really into it and couldn't really live their lives without this grand party of all… I've outlived most of my family member and thinking about it makes me really sad and want to cry most of the time when it comes to my mind, not that I couldn't see them, talk to them, or touch them anymore but sad that I am still breathing, how I envy them being dead to the world… I've said to myself that I'll only lived for 27 years, and damn it for my calculations are wrong… I've wanted death for a really long time, natural death that is, be it by too much drinking or too much smoking, and by the way… it's quite normal for our family member to die by that 'cause, usually it's the male side but I think the female side are catching up in my generations and the next ^_^; so, I'll be much much more happier to die by that cause but instead it somewhat evaded me and others got to die when they really are not into it… why is it like that?

Ah' such is the life of this world. Don't mistake me for others who doesn't live their life to the fullest… man, I've lived my life and enjoying it more than anyone else… its just that… I think I've done it all *scratch head* way to fast that most humans ^_^; and most really at the same time… but I kind of always wanted that since I was a err… whatever… I'd better start walking again to this so-called road to darkness… I've wasted enough time writing this one… I might fall asleep again ^_^;

I've come to this strange place… familiar yet it is not… The sun shines brightly during the day yet it is dark that almost everyone can't see in it, The night is so dark in here that you have to crawl like a blind man to move around, yet to them it is like daylight… knowing and seeing everything…

Speak or shout louder for that is how they communicate with each other for they are like deaf… but in whisper they would talk normally… the real world is like a nightmare and the nightmare is the real world… you'd rather not be awaken for you'll be living like hell once again… sometimes I would believe that I am in hell already, if there is one… tormenting, slowly killing you from within… they are like a vampire that visit you every night while in your sleep and slowly draining you of your life energy with each visit… if this keeps on happening, then I'm afraid I would not last long enough to find out what I seek in this road to darkness… must escape this place as soon as possible…

But I must first sleep now, thinking and writing about this one makes me so tired and sleepy once again ^_^;